Weirdly enough, this really reflects a lot of events in my life of late. "The Hero" and I have been on a life roller coaster for a while now and I must say my rather queasy self is ready to get the hell off of it. Something good happens and slowly, very slowly we *click* *click* *click* to the top of that hill, the anticipation builds, the butterflies frenzy in our stomachs, until we rush down the hill, our bodies life, and we *thunk* at the bottom, our stomachs and nerves brought quickly back to reality of level track, but before we can process and comprehend the meaning of our return we look up and *whoosh* we are speeding, tilting around another corner.
I think many people of my age, our age, are facing similar transitional times in their lives. As a control freak, and believe me I am a Control FREAK, this is really a difficult thing to deal with. I really want to be able to plan my life out moment by moment for the next 10 years, and the thought that it could all change in a month, a day, a week, a year, etc. makes me absolutely sick, and I mean physically sick. However, I am learning to live more in the moment and I am slowly, ever so very, very, very slowly learning to let go of my need to have knowledge and control over my life. I need to learn to give up. Just like I gave up on trying to get my post to work this morning, I need to give up on trying to know how things are going to turn out and just accept where I am.
But... I swear to the spot of super glue on my desk, if one more person tells me that "things will work out, you just need to be patient" I will lose my freaking brain goo all over there favorite outfit.
In the words of the famous writer, Kathleen Norris-
"When you are unhappy, is anything more maddening than to be told you should be contented with your lot in life?"
What are you trying to give up on?
I trying to give up on a list that is a mile long. And I only say things will work out because I don't know what else to say!
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